Wednesday, September 30, 2009
HUGE, HUGE sigh.For this, this and that.
.
Labels: tired. just tired.
Monday, September 28, 2009
6-1!!!Had me floating around in happiness.
For awhile.
Torres hat-trick:D
whee.
Miraculously, I passed chemistry:)
I'm at a loss
at a loss
at a loss.
.
Not even one day passes without me thinking of it.
What more am I supposed to do?
:(
Crying by myself at home in my room doesn't help at all.
Labels: weirded out; the limit; stupid exams go away; __ so close yet so far.
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Mr Toh's 'pastoral care' lesson on friday officially confirmed that I'm suffering for stress!:)Okay I don't know why I feel happy; maybe I'm in a state of self-realisation, that's why.
And anyway, I'm still going to continue studying with music, because without music, I can't even get started. It's a really bad habit, but I can't kick it. Oh well.
Geog friends, jia you jia you okay? You can do it!:D
Please please, just let me pass geog.
Yesterday's play-play session at sinli's house rocked! Haha. Got to play wii and mahjong (and act pro at it even though I'm not:P) and talk crap with people. Met zy too!:)
And and and finally got my revenge by beating man utd on wii's fifa 09!!! Muahahaha. And Torres scored the only goal of the match too:D
I think me being agitated during the 'fake' game seemed quite funny to some right, haha. But I can't help it whenever Liverpool is involved.XP
Went crazy playing house of the dead with shiting also. I think we make quite a good pair!:D
And lastly, sinli if you ee this please thank your mum for the ham too. It's very nice:)
It seems you want it to be this way.
Haha I realised all my paragraphs are so random and are all one-liners.
Labels: it's not always on the downside; randomness; __ so close yet so far.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Stupid prelims.I wonder if the teachers really mean it when they say they pitch the papers to A Level standard, because if this were true, I'm going to do very badly for A's.
E for gp. Not exactly what I've expected for myself. Not at all. Should have expected it though since I was crapping my way through the essay writing on a topic I know nuts about.
And I think 'B' for gp is already very good! Hmph.
:P
Tomorrow is D-day. Econs and geog!!! I'm super-uber nervous now.
:(
I think I've wasted lots of potatos over the course of two short days.
Absolute Potato overdose on wednesday! Lunched with yee and joanne and flea at nyny at raffles place. We were kinda like a bunch of anorexic people out to treat themselves to a nice meal. We ended up ordering four appetisers and drinks. Haha. And Yee and I didn't know 'fish bites' included fries, so we ordered wedges as well. The thought of potatoes makes me want to puke now. (I've just eaten kfc mashed potato btw. Eww.) It's potato-abstinence for one week starting today.
I want to watch 'FAME'! :D
Monday, September 21, 2009
Tomorrow is the last day of prelims!!!Jia you people!:D
Physics friends, good luck for your last prelim paper too!:D
Zzz... I just can't stand how man utd can always win with luck. Same old story. Who gives SIX minutes of injury time anyway.
Sunday, September 20, 2009
I nearly had a heart attack watching Liverpool play last night, or rather, in the early morning.I think carragher should be dropped. What horrendous defending. Hmph.
W-O-W. That's why I love Torres. What skill, discounting bad goalkeeping.XD
My favourite goal of his so far this season. Already scored 4 goals, and more to come!!!:D
Slacked for 24 hours yesterday. Doesn't even feel like there's one more exam paper to go on tuesday, lol.
Labels: hearts torres because he's the best; __ so close yet so far.
Friday, September 18, 2009
Whee-ness.:D :D :D
THREE things made me happy today.
One, is that the exams are over!!! Well not quite-there's still math paper 2 next tuesday, but I shall discount that for now. The other two I shall keep to myself and be happy:)
Chemistry paper was quite tough today. I did not have enough time to finish BOTH papers one and two! Which means fail. But I still hope that I can get a pass at least? (hopeful) It was the first ime I didn't have enough time to complete my mcq and had to tikam like 7 questions.
For geography I was spot on. For spotting the things that won't be tested, but in the end were all tested.
In the library today where 33/08ers were mugging geog:
Me: Must we read about all the biome stuff? Not even tested before...
Van: I also never read before
Both: Aiya, won't come out one la.
In the exam: 'Explain the differences between the tropical savanna and hot low latitude desert biomes.[9m]'
Die.
Me: Will cyclones be tested again? I don't think so right? It was tested in mid-years...
Van and wst: Hmm, don't think so.
In the exam: 'With the aid of diagrams, explain the formation and weather characteristics of tropical cyclones. Explain how their impacts can be successfully mitigated.[16m]'
Die.
Me: (exclaims while reading notes on fieldwork techniques) Why the h*ll will people spend like three years measuring the rate of soil creep?!
(some people laugh)
In the exam: 'Briefly explain how you may conduct a field study to investigate the rate of soil creep on a slope.[4m]'
Hoho, I see my words are very accurate today.
I got cheated $1.50 by breadtalk today! Rawr.
Little by little, we'll make it through.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Abandoned my blog for 10 days!!!Haha.
It seemed like forever.
4 more hellish days to go!=/
Had 5hours and 15 minutes of examination and non-stop writing today.
I practically emptied nearly one pen refill today, because my handwriting automatically enlarges during examinations, although my sis says it's still very small.
Left an entire 9m question for geog blank! I think I'm going to get a sarcastic comment for it. Anyway, I still didn't have enough time to complete the paper.
Same for econs, but that was because I stoned too much during the paper. Didn't expect the case studies to be so tricky. Somehow I kept having the uneasy feeling that the questions were 'deeper' that what they seemed like.
Friday is the day I'm dreading. Sigh.
US Open was great, except nadal didn't win:(
Well at least federer didn't too.
Why must stupid mio tv win the rights to broadcast champions league matches. Pfft. But I'll still probably find my own way to watch anyway:)
I wonder if __.
All the unspoken words are killing me.
What if
the world was ending tomorrow
What if
self-realisation hits you just then
What if
regret comes at full force
and leaves you hanging by the thread
Each day that uneasyness haunts you
The feeling-
No words suffice
What if
it is too late?
Is it too late
for salvation
At the spur of the moment.
I just don't know where to start, I really don't.
Life feels different without you, I swear.
Labels: the prelims are turning me into a weird person; __ so close yet so far.
Friday, September 4, 2009
Blew my chance of getting whatever grade I'd wanted to get for econs.Xianz.
:(
Why can't they give us 2h30min instead of 2h15min??
Thinking of the next week makes me wanna die, or just go into hibernation until the prelims are over.
But then again, there's still the A's.
Sad sad sad.
Today the school counsellor spoke to my class. Of course I didn't say all my problems. They ere too personal. Hurhur but I bet there were others who had problems they didn't say aloud too haha. Sometimes dealing with certain stress is so difficult you just want to die and not care anymore. Like when I actually contemplated suicide before when I was secondary two. Hurhur. I bet no one knew because I haven't told anyone before. My deepest (well, nearly) secret. Those were the dark days haha. When I think of it now, I feel stupid. Like, "Man, I must have been crazy."
Hell.
Life seems, and it is, different now.
Labels: when it just sweeps you of your feet; transparency; __ so close yet so far.
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
I love watching melodramas/movies alone, because I can just cry my *rse off without giving a hoot about my image.Getting myself so absorbed into the story and just leaving all my worries behind for awhile feels so great, I don't even feel like coiming back into reality again.
Self-denial, perhaps?
The movie is so sad, my heart aches watching it, but I loved the way love was depicted.
It made me understand that I don't understand what love is.
I cried so much this week in the two worlds.
Labels: drifting to somewhere far off isn't always a bad thing; __ so close yet so far.
i'VE got this 
i WANT this