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Friday, August 14, 2009

Bottled-up confessions.
Bottled-up rants.

Nowadays (and it's getting more and more frequent) I keep hearing my devil and angel speaking within. I'm fluctuating between 'giving it all up and just become a bummer' and 'go mug, you slacker'. I'm at a loss. I know which road to choose, yet there is this ~~annoying~~ ever-present inertia that is holding me back because I can't see my future. I don't know what to do, now, and in the near future. I hate my society. I hate having to study. I hate exams. Why can't we just gain knowledge for fun and just to satisfy our own thirst for it? Why, instead, do we gain knowledge so that we can score an 80 or above for some freaking A level examination so that we can get into the courses we want, and secure high-paying jobs in the future? I feel it's all because of the existence of 'money'. Why can't money be abolished for the world and just let free trade dominate our transactions? Entrepot trade and specialisation, the way to go. Qualifications wouldn't matter then.

I think all teachers should embrace equality (anti-bias!) and learn to manage their emotions well.
Of course, I'm still pissed. ~~Why did I leave the class in the first place, pfft.~~

I ~~spent~~wasted my national day long weekend slacking away- and it wasn't even quality slacking- albeit baking and studying econs.
In the end the muffins turned out bad (the brownie was okay though:)) and I NAQed for 1 1/2 econs essay questions:(
I really really want to get my A for econs (and progress past 1 evaluation mark)!!!
Okay maybe I'll change my way of studying, because apparently, it isn't getting me anywhere. I shall try the method mr toh mentioned today.

Funniest thing that happened in school this week belonged to my boss. I just lmao during tuesday's math lecture because of boss's rather gross and unglam moments.XD
After eating vegetarian during the break just before the lecture, she stuffed down my brownie and muffin without any discretion at all. And we both were quite sure that the lecturer saw her busy eating, but was too nice to say anything. Then not long after eating, boss burped. It immediately sent cheryl and I (and I think the other people in the class also) into laughter because it was quite loud. Then when I thought I'd stopped laughing, I heard another burp (which boss said she was trying to control and hide but failed, obviously) and it all started over again. I think my stomach ached after that because I laughed too much.
Okay, at least the lecture wasn't so boring because of what happened.
:D

I want to fly away, now,
if not for Friends that make me keep going.

Labels: random shitz; the most tiring week ever; __ so close yet so far.